Catching Up

I am really not good at this so far. But, no one is going to see it anyway, so I guess it's not a big deal.

Anyway, since last I wrote. My big birthday bash actually was pretty spectacular. I did not get very drunk (thankfully) and had a really good time. My friends blew up a picture of me from seventh grade and dragged it around from bar to bar with us. It was adorably horrifying. I got a lot of free drinks out of it though!
After the party I went out basically every weekend and found that I HATE going out. I am not very good at being drunk, and I generally dislike other people even more when they drink. So I have since stopped this going out business.
I also stopped going to my counselor. Which is probably pretty awful. But I am just not ready to deal with any of that yet. Some things are repressed for a reason. And, more importantly, I got very sick of my mother oh-so-subtley reminding me how much therapy was costing her. Lovely. Also though, my therapist was a very nice lady, but very very christian. Nothing wrong with that of course, just not very helpful to me. I am not interested in hearing about how Satan throws "darts of shame" and that's what makes me feel the way I feel. You know, I was pretty sure shame was just a natural emotional reaction to what was going on, but I guess "shame darts" could be reasonable too? How could I possibly trust that person with my mental well-being, or more specifically, my lack thereof.
Let's see, what else?
I have started dating again. Interesting so far. This whole coupling process of humans is entirely baffling to me. I just don't get it. I therorize that emotions should really have nothing to do with it. I think, in most ways, love is more a choice than an emotion any way, at least in lasting relationships. I think you could probably be happy with just about anyone if you had similar beliefs and ideas, wants and desires, and you DECIDED to be happy with them. That is the big thing I believe. This new boy disagrees. Which I guess is fair since he has been in a few more relationships than I.
To completely contradict my new theory, I believe I have (stupidly) fallen for this boy. He is very wonderful and all, but I really don't know how I feel about being so vulnerable to another person. I try to avoid that, usually at all costs, but something about him just clicks in me and I get all stupid. He is not yet this stupid about me, making matters oh-so-much more fun. Who knows, I suppose I should get my heart broken at least once right?
I also got a new job. It is pretty fantastic. I work at a bike shop. How great, right? The people are really fun, and I'm learning a whole lot. I think this fall I really would like to go back to school too. Maybe I will be productive with this year, that would be new.
I think there is more that I am forgetting. But, as I am forgetting it, it must not be important enough to write about. So hopefully, I will remember to do this again soon.